February, 2010


21
Feb 10

Im nutz

God…dat was juz not me on previous post…i choose this path…and i shudnt be regretting now…all had happened …Its time to get ma redbull/coffee or whatever shit dat gonna keep me awake…and fresh..hah.



19
Feb 10

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You worry somewhat about what people will think of you when things go wrong in your life, but not excessively. Perhaps you are sensitive in some areas or feel more vulnerable to social scrutiny on some days than others. Unfortunately, this attitude can lead you to feel worse about your problems than you need to. It also means that you may be less likely to seek comfort from others when you are in emotional pain.


19
Feb 10

IM DEPRESSED

IM STRESSED UP!I DONO WAT ELSE TO SAY!WAT ELSE TO DO!FUCK I JUST FEEL LIKE ENDING MA LIFE RIGHT NOW!!!I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE….y DO I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE???IS IT A SIGN???DAT I WILL LEAVE DIS WORLD SOON???IT NO POINT LIVING,BUT I DONT WANNA DIE…NOW..ARGGGHH IM JUST …..I DONO WAD ELSE WORDS DAT IM GONNA USE!!!!FED UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP ARRRRGGGGHHHH I WANNA KILL EVERYONE…YES YOU!!!!!!FUCK CAre u family or nobody!!!!!i just feel like killing,hitting,punching someone!!!!!!!!!!!arrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh


15
Feb 10

Something is just not right.. ..

I think im being irritating.At times..OKAY always.But it wont be for long!Trust me.There will be a time where YOU people cant stand me and tell me what the fuc is wrong with you?!?!And it hurts coz whenever im angry,i would be out of control and hit maself with anything dats around me!Lucky there isnt any hammer in ma room .Had a lil argument wit people in ma house last sat..Not so stupid to cut ma wrist.But i did sumtin…Y i did dat? What was i thinking?!?!?Okay. .dat’s just so stupid.. .hm. .. I received sumtin today… and i like it so much.moreover its black!It would have been better if you hand it to me personally. Haiz.. .i need ma coffee. ..i knew i need to take it easy and dats y im trying ma best.Trying ma best to quit too..Lets just use d word doing instead of trying…okay...

All i can say is,im sorry to you.& dad for not able to do well in ma studies and to make u proud . And i always wanna say this…. The only thing u care about is for me to go poly… PASS OLEVEL,GO POLY…PASS OLEVELS GO POLY..POLY…POLY?!?!?!?!??Maybe not just me…but ma siblings too.. but have u ever notice d good things dat ur children had done?

oh well maybe ive never do anything good to this family.



5
Feb 10

MIX pichasssssss

20552_1325211496441_1415501721_916211_3458635_n.jpg dont disturb me when im cooking!’

20552_1325211896451_1415501721_916221_482249_n.jpg stare what stare?!?! jhahha not a single stuff i add to ma face!argh!grosss

20552_1325221896701_1415501721_916259_6650194_n.jpg Just d day before ma 1st sista got married! 3rd sista doin d henna .. Goodwood park hotel! as u can see…she’s stress!!aww4989_1163483853351_1415501721_437970_2281004_n.jpg senget haha…where have ma clean face gone?!?!?!!?!? hee

\4989_1163484373364_1415501721_437983_3137807_n.jpg in aussie…

4989_1163485773399_1415501721_438018_6330849_n.jpg im glad i pose this way.. ..hahha


2
Feb 10

focus on where i wanna go,not what i am fear of!

Ma website now is freaking dead!i dono what to do anymore?!?!?? argghh. Anyway was playing psp dat day and guess what!??!? ive reach 250 million in who wants to be a millionaire?!?!?!but didnt manage to win.arghh haha.Sis bdae today…dono wad to give her…. haiz..always celebrate wit her friends….never stick at home on her bday!Godd ive been sleeping whenever i reach home from school for d past few days!!!! I promised maself dat i will not sleep in d noon!!!!!ARGGHHH dis cant be happening!!!!! I NEED SOMEONE TO CANE ME!ii deserve it!!IM wASTING MA PARENTS MONEY?!?i didnt do anything to make them proud?!??i feel so useless!and i feel dat im sucha burden to ma family esp. ma parents!?!?! Pissed off wit maself!!!  :’( thank god dat i have friends around me dat atleast show bit of concern. ….. if not i guess im dead by now!