I always put up unecessary fights….but regardless of that you have to know u still have the reasons to hold on.You must know dat u are cherished,treasured and always thought of day by day.That u are an important person to someone who may not be the best for u , but i will make up for it by loving u more than anyone can and ever will.
June, 2010
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Jun 10
Boyz II Men – A song for mama
You were there for me to love and care for me
when skies were grey
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be
You will always be the girl in malife for all times
MAMA
Mama you know i love you.
but can you throw all the stuff that youre not using!!?!?!3/4 of ur things inside ma room!?!?!!u making me craaaazyy!!?!!!!? hmph.
15
Jun 10
saaeloh
All this while i am, stupid UGLY DUMB EXTREMELY STUPID A BURDEN TO PEOPLE OBTUSE FOOLISH UNINTELLIGENT MEANINGLESS NONSENSICAL POINTLESS HORRIBLE WHY I CANT JUST ACCEPT IT.WHY PEOPLE PUT HIGH HOPE ON ME WHEN THEY KNOW DAT I AM STUPID I WILL NEVER GO FURTHER IM JUST SO STUPID IF I DIE NO ONE EVEN CARE COZ I DONE NOTHING!NOTHING TO MAKE PEOPLE HAPPY IVE DONE NOTHING GOOD TO PEOPLE WHY SHUD I CARE I DONT CARE NOT AT ALL I DONT IMA FAILURE WHY SHUD I CARE IF IM GONNA FAIL OR GONNA MAKE IT CUZ I WILL ALWAYS GONNA FAIL FINE I CHOSE THIS BECAUSE OF U PEOPLE SHIT IM NOT LIKE UR OTHER CHILD LA FCKUERU THINK UR CHILDREN SO GOOD DUMB-ASS
14
Jun 10
Torn
A part of me wants to leave.
But a part of me wants to be there with you.
A part of me says to think it through
A part of me says it’s all my fault.
A part of me says “i ain’t what you want.”
Torn in between the two.
Cuz I really wanna be with you.
But something’s telling me I should leave you alone.
Leave you alone. . .
12
Jun 10
Always
I’ve always put you in ma prayers ,after ma mother ,ma father followed by ma siblings then relatives. . .
followed by you. You always come after that.Yes you meant that much to me in ma life and you still do.. .
You’re always in ma heart.
I guess ma life is a bit complicated.EVOL?Didnt know how it came . Didnt plan it just came out the least expected.It’s hard. .. . .Well , like they say – who says EVOL was easy?
i rather be alone than i keep making people @%#*@$!.Im sorry
12:27pm
10
Jun 10
Not Fair
Listening to Lily ALLen songs… wow its like every song in her Alright,Still album sounds nice.Love her…she’s weird..in a good way.
Tot of watching Karate Kid today wit parents… but canceled.Haiz. .. gotta look at Jaden Smith.. .he’s so cute.
Ma schedule is really tight .. .work need to be done.. A LOT! Yea.. .its time to get ready for redbull and coffee. ..lots of cans.. …Haiz. ..Its really hard.. .hard for me.. ..maybe im born to be DUMB.Im bored of using da word stupid..Imma coward.. .im really scared if im gonna fail this time round.. ..again! hell no.I shud kill maself.Think about it…what i have showed/done good to this family???!? Im sucha %$&$%&*@@$!!